Kirsty | 33 | Bedford, England | Support Worker
I was about 14 when I realised that I was different from the rest of my classmates; that I was a girl who fancied other girls and not boys like the rest of my peers. This was back in the mid '90s when there weren’t really any lesbian role models on the telly. So I just thought I was going through a stage and that I'd soon grow out of it and be like everyone else. So I kept hiding my feelings and hoping that a lad would come along who I'd fancy and do the whole straight thing of marriage and kids.
As I became older I became more withdrawn and still wasn't interested in blokes. Then in the late '90s there was the big night on telly when Ellen came out in her show and finally I knew I wasn't alone and in fact that I was gay. It still took me until the year 2000 when I was 21 to start exploring who I was and going out on the scene. I started coming out to people and then in 2001 I came out to my mum; well I was outed by a friend to her.
At first she was really accepting but then the problems started; conversations that I'd never get married or have kids. So I left home as I felt like I was a disappointment to her because as the eldest of two I'd never give my mum grandchildren. Now in 2012 I haven't spoken to my mum since 2005 but am slowly rebuilding family connections through my uncle. So hopefully one day Mum will accept me for who I am.